Have you seen God?

Our most recent letter from January 2nd, 2012

My father Almighty God is God,the creator of whole universe,unchangable God,the husband of widows and father to all fatherless. I bless his holy Name.
There was a time my soul long or desire for Jesus& my creator,i cried almost that period ,all my prayer point was i want to see Jesus chirst. Every night i could not sleep is like having fear in my life every night.but one faithful Night I experience peace,love $ joy.immdiately i closed my eye to sleep.i heard my name he said i have come to see you.he speaks gentile, his voice sounds so sweet ,he was so tall,he wore white garment, he spoke to me while i was in the dream,it was like a real life.from that moment I slept like a new born baby that night. Our God hears and he sees he knows our desire. The word of God says ''without faith u cannot please God''.believe,trust and obey our Almighty God.

Letter from November 28th, 2011
My Story,
when I was a little boy aged 8, the Lord took my mother from me in a car accident, as I saw the coffin lowered into the ground I pushed God away! I grew up and finally developed a relationship with my father who died when I was 18 yrs. So I decided to live my life as a humanitarian and felt that if I do good things in life I will not get to harshly treated if there is an afterlife.

After trying several different avenues I decided to be a nurse and to help to heal people. I married after reaching 30s and my wife battled depression and the marriage suffered greatly, but I being the great one I could cope with anything kept strong!

Then one day while preparing a meal at the cooker I felt a presence behind me it felt huge, so I dare not move my eyes in case I would see anything, I asked it to leave and it did not go straight away. It was only then that my mind allowed me to remember several things that had went on that few weeks prior doors shutting in my face hearing sounds of like a gang of people making alot of noise in the side of the house that is not connected to any other house. all this kind of stuff was so that i was explaining it all away like did I leave that computer on??

That evening I spoke to a sister who did alot of healings and connected with the angels and also sent spirits on, I gave her the whole story and my sister told me to ask Arch Angel Michael with love and light to come above and below me to the left and right, front and back of me and to come into me, with that I felt I was getting the biggest hug I ever received in my whole life and I nearly asked my dear sis to stop talking as I was enjoying it so much.

I told my wife this story, she recanted that in her work place she heard me calling her form upstairs, and also heard me and the kids arrive in the drive she looked out the bedroom window and saw nobody there! these events had happened for her during the week s prior.

We went to my sisters for holiday, there I sat with her and the session began, she waved about a bunch of sage burning and it began, she ask in the name of Jesus and Arch Angel Michael to ask the spirits who were with me in my kitchen to come forth! I was asked to hold out my left hand and so I felt a real cold sensation my sis then asked who was it and asked me to allow the name to come from the heart not my head, the name felt like it was forced out from my chest Cha a late uncle, then I was asked to hold out the right hand and I felt a lesser coldness I knew straight away this was my father, during the proceedings i was shown a picture of a stripped baby's jumper I asked my sister what could this mean? she said it was our mother in the back round.

All these proceedings happened with my eyes closed.

The next part of this meeting she told me there were two spirits with me which needed to be moved on to the light, the first was a boy around age seven, My sister asked me how did he died and I seen him collapse twice in my mind, the next was a baby which went with the other spirit as my sister sent the baby on, I got an image of a child waving! I returned to my home and I was now terrified and had a feeling the spirits were not finished with me, when even my kid were in school I would drive around to anywhere but my home on the second day of doing the same I parked in a car park of a forest reclined my seat in my car and put the radio on fairly loudly and tried to nap each time I did my heart felt like it was fluttering anyway I settled with this fluttering in my chest even though I knew my heart was not racing,

then I felt the spirits come into my chest the told me not to be frightened and I felt so much love and joy in my chest in my mind they were just like bright light, at some point I asked not to allow me to see anything with my eyes. It felt like they were fluttering and swapping to give me hugs then I had my mother hug me I knew it was her as it was a mother son connection and she wept over me, the then put an image of me as a little boy pushing away God for taking her from me it was then I asked them to ask the Lord to forgive me for doing so! At some point I felt I had had enough and they put an image into my mind of someone grabbing the back of someones ankles I understood they meant me not to leave yet! The love and joy and hugs continued throughout this experience.

Then the revealed the Lord like pulling back a curtain of their bright light to reveal the light and love of the Lord even though their light was the same, then they revealed another presence that seemed higher to my right had side and I knew this to be Our Lady.

As I was still in the car I felt my legs straighten out and felt as if my body was starting to raise up and it was there I didn't want to to any furhter with the experience and then the feeling of them moved away.

The feeling of joy and or love and the world seemed so bright, that lasted for at least a full day and a half.

So from this I truly believe in the Lords love and light and we must lead good lives!

Letter from November 14th 2011
I saw the face of his son. I dont belive it is my purpose to tell anyone what he looked like in my personal vision, but for me it was obvious that it was jesus. He looked like any of us,and still not. Like a miserable man. Still i could tell he was royal like no one else./ mike the mormon busdriver

Letter from October 18th 2011
I have seen God with my own eyes when I was about 2 years of age and it was not a man. It was the same description described by our genuine profit. I do not care to be believed, it doesnt matter to me. I dont believe in God, I know God exists. All the paintings and pictures are wrong, the churches are wrong, everything people think they know is wrong. God is not a man, can not breed with man, can not become a man.

Letter from October 17th 2011

I am going to really piss many off because I Did actually see God and will explain in detail! You see there is something buried in 99% of people that doesn’t want this to be true. Explaining why when you say you have seen God, everyone pulls a stupid face. Andre Martin de Barros

Mainly because no one ‘really’ believes in God, not really, so they think you are a lair, the reaction is such a dead give away.

Not a mystical experience or strange feeling, I saw and understood something more real than this construct reality. Technically, I did not see ‘God’, the man with a beard who gives you everything you want if you are good, of course not because that’s actually Father Xmas, and no he doesn’t exist.

And when you say ‘God’ it’s a tricky one because there are many definitions of that word. God is not an infinite ‘being’ simply because the infinite can’t be sized/quantified and therefore anything that becomes manifest, even if it’s not physical per se, will then by it’s definition not be the ‘whole’, only an aspect…so there’s no such thing as an infinite ‘being’ that’s a contradiction in terms, I think the Hindus understand that, it’s complicated let me explain. (When God speaks it’s always via a construct/mechanism/avatar, something a linear being may understand.) This is going to be a tale you never expected and even after reading it and understanding the logic and noting the impossible events that surrounded what I call my ‘awakening’, you still won’t believe it, why?

It’s simple, you won’t believe in God until you see it for yourself! Which is natural, sane, logical!

Sure many say they believe in God, but the hard fact is that they are nothing more than hopeful, or they have seen something that makes them suspect 99%. The example of this for me is that many say that they have seen angels. Well, I never saw an angel. However, seeing what God is I understand that they could indeed exist, in computer terms I would call We The Angels them system tools, it makes sense, and yet I have never seen one and so I don’t really know…

Okay, I was born in London in 1961, a Jew by birth and yet not religious. In fact because I was brought up in a Christian secular working class area, I was bullied for being different and in that I had to fight for most of my early life. This made me hard and sceptical, so no I am not a ‘spiritual type’ with a predisposition for this kind of thing. In my dog eat dog world no one speaks of God, except for maybe the odd religious freaks who collect money in the pub.I did have a big thing about right and wrong and would always stick up for anyone who was bullied, of course due to being bullied myself, knowing how it felt. So that was me, working class, tattooed bit of a Jack the lad.

In 1993/4, as Roofing Leadworker I headed a four man team, laying 140 tonne of sheet lead to the lower roof slopes of the Dome of the Rock Jerusalem, during the refurbishment works.This is when the ‘odd’ began. In fact the ‘weird’ started even before that in the way we that won the Dome contract. (When I say weird or odd, I actually mean, ‘More than is generally seen in this logical construct reality, and yet when you know how it works it’s actually very logical.)

Me and my work mates were working at Windsor Castle at the time, and in a tea break I was reading the paper checking out what work was being advertised with regards to getting some work when the current contract ended.

I saw an ad that said, ‘Leadworkers wanted in the Middle East’ and I said right there and then to my mates that we would get that contract. I just knew! I don’t know how I knew but I did, but then that’s no so weird, we all have things like that happen to us. You know, like that you think of someone and then they call you on the phone etc.

The main contractor competed world wide to win that contract and we competed country wide to become their subcontractors completing a show job in Burton Dasset, not far from Oxford.

So the chances of me, a Jew, working at the Muslim controlled site were pretty slim, and yes they did find out I was a Jew and yes of course there was nearly an incident, you know how people are. But then as I said, I don’t look like someone you would mess with so I fronted it out and it faded away.

(In fact I am not an aggressive person, I hate violence being a victim of it, and yet I do look like a ‘thug’ broken nose and tattoos, but then we all looked like that where I was dragged up.)

So, the contract commenced and was completed with nothing ‘strange’ happening. The only odd thing that happened back then, that I didn’t really take any notice of because it made no sense to me at the time was this. I was walking across the dome area one day with my work mate going for a piss. Then some guy cane running up to me and started to shake my hand, he said ‘You have come to help restore our Father’s house!’

I said, ‘Yeah we are doing the lead below the dome’ but then he wouldn’t let go of my hand and would not stop smiling, and I have to admit I was getting a bit uncomfortable. Then when I figured it was enough I took back my hand and began on my way. As I walked away he shouted after me, my name is (something in what did not sound like Arabic and it definitely wasn’t Hebrew). I smiled and carried on. Then he shouted, ‘In English that’s Jesus, Jesus!

I smiled again and carried on my way, and it was odd because he never once even looked at my work mate and we were both wearing company logo T shirts.

The really crazy stuff happened about nine months or so after I got back to the UK.

I was working on the Cathedral in Truro at the time.

I won’t tell you in detail what happened because it takes too long, and this e-mail is going to be long enough. I will just hit on a few bullet points so that you can get the picture of what I’m talking about.

I was working in Truro with one other work mate. We rented a cottage for the duration of the works and my girlfriend came down to stay treating it as holiday.

So, we set up site and began the works.

I was sitting on the roof replacing lead ridge cappings about 100ft up. My mate looked up at the spire and said something like, ‘The spire looks much higher from up here, you would have thought it would look higher from the ground but you have to be up here to see exactly how high it really is’.

As I looked at the spire I felt really weird. You see I had seen this exact same view before! Maybe three years back. I had dream, such a prolific dream that I even tried to write about it, and yet I couldn’t use a PC back then, heck hardly anyone had PC’s back then, and my writing is terrible so I eventually gave up.

In my dream I saw this exact same sight and you had to be 100ft up to see it this way.

As I looked on, the spire split apart and fell as a siren sounded, then a line of energy shoot out of the ruin and connected to every other holy sight in the world.

Well in reality, it wasn’t a siren, the noise was someone tuning the organ, the experience was such that it actually dragged me back into that dream as if it were seconds ago!!

There is no way to describe how I felt, I was not entirely sure if I was dreaming or awake!

I felt so shaky that I made an excuse to go down and get some drinks, I didn’t feel safe up there I felt like I needed to be on the ground.

Back on the ground my head was spinning, what was happening, how had my dream broken into reality. I stood in the queue in the shop and the crazy thing that was the radio seemed to be answering my questions by way of the songs it was playing. I needed to get out of there fast! I paid and left then decided to go inside the Cathedral sit down, take five, get my shit together.

But then as I walked into the Cathedral I was confronted by a painting of the Cathedral with a line of energy coming out of it connecting to the other churches in Cornwall, just like in my dream. Can you imagine how I felt, I was sinking big time.

Standing in the compound my mind was racing, what the hell was going on and as I stood there I saw a piece of paper about 30 ft away, caught on the wind flitting about, but somehow it didn’t seem to belong in reality. As I watched it flew around gradually making its way to me lodging itself squarely under the toe of my work book.

I picked it up and read it, it was a torn piece of a church flyer, it read, ‘God will come into your life’ and I felt …….sick.

I stood there for a while and the decided to carry on as normal, put this out of my mind, be strong, be normal, so I climbed back up to where my workmate was and we both drunk our drinks and got back to work.

As I focused on the work, things settled down to just a question mark in my mind, I felt normal again.

That night when we go back to the cottage, I sat down in front of the TV, but then my eyes kept being drawn to the plug, Pos, Neg, Earth, Pos, neg Earth. It all made such sense, I didn’t have the words to describe it back then but it was a fractal of reality which was a product of consciousness. Viewer, viewed and that which is neither, the viewer draws from the subconscious (infinite) neg and manifests the viewed Earth.

As fast as it made sense it didn’t and I sat there trying to explain it to my girlfriend and my mate. They laughed because I do like to joke, and they though this was me being silly as usual.

It was confusing back then, the infinite is potentially all and yet can’t manifest as it contradicts itself being All (it would be male female, black white, old young, in out, up down etc.) and therefore it manifests in a logical linear defined format in order to be known. And as it is conscious it must be known as consciousness is achieved via a re-cognised feedback loop of separated thought, the conscious element of the all forcing the ONE to separate so that it can be self aware. In viewing our thoughts that are deemed not to be us the viewer, we then re-cognise those thoughts, and in that re-cognise the recognisor, we see ourselves, we are self aware.

An interaction between finite and infinite opposites that then creates a linear experience of the impossible un-manifestable infinite. Kind of like viewing a film that is complete and in the can (infinite), frame by frame (linear finite) in order to know the film.

As I said, as quick as I understood, I then didn’t understand. It was as if it was shown then taken away.

The rest of the week was fairly normal although I did ponder it over and over and then on the weekend everything changed.

Obviously I spoke to my girlfriend about it, she said that it might be due to me trying LCD one time in India; this was what they called flashbacks. Well it sounded feasible and I was happy to have a reason for this because then it was ‘normal’ and in that it would pass. But then deep down I was not happy with the reason due to how the experience was entering the real world, there were too many coincidences.

That night I went to sleep as usual and then I began to dream. In my dream I became aware I was dreaming, something that I was used to, something I enjoy often in fact as when you know you are dreaming then you can jump off of buildings and fly, walk through walls, generally have fun, they call it lucid dreaming.

So, in my dream I was standing in a normal kind of place and then I looked up at the sky. It split apart and in the gap I saw incredible colours as music was playing and I was drawn into the ‘gap’.

This was no dream!!!!!

I was Totally aware that my body was asleep on the bed but I could not for the life of me get back there, it was terrifying.

I was being communicated with, there was a voice in my mind talking to me but I saw no other. The voice was showing images, teaching me, REMINDING me of who I really was.

I was scared and in that I was arguing against the voice, I was saying that this was not real, this is a flashback, it would pass. It was hell, why? Because the voice was logically dismantling my reality, and I was not ready for that, I needed reality it was my sanity.

I had trained in the parachute reg, was a martial arts instructor and had had more street fights than I cared to remember so I consider myself to be strong of character.

I was treating this like one of my physical challenges, ‘Push through the pain Berg, this will pass, dig deep, be strong’.

The voice laughed at me as I struggled to defend reality. ‘You don’t even know where you are! You think you are ‘in’ space, when space can’t have a logical boundary to be with ‘in’, your reality makes no sense it never did. Began from nothing with a bang? Nothing can come from nothing, there is no action in nothing in order to facilitate a change into something, which simply means that there must have always been something, which makes no sense to a linear being but I will explain.’

I had to deny this truth, in my mind I was fighting for survival, defending the reality that made me me. A ‘real’ person born in a ‘real’ place.

But then I lost the argument…….

I was speaking to an aspect of God, not God because God is all and it’s not linear, it messes with a linear mind, it makes no sense, but then sense and logic is not all that exists.

We linear aspects exist in a logic bubble, logic is our language, the language we use to reveal approximately what consciousness is. And yet consciousness is potentially anything and yet nothing if not manifest.

‘God’ from the infinite aspect is an unlimited mind, and yet in order to know itself it needs a premise or format, and then that premise or format dictates limitation.

Example; We are doing nothing there are no rules, but then we decide to play football. Now we are ‘footballers’ which means we have two sides, an objective and rules. The premise format creates limitation via rules/parameters.

I won’t try to explain more of what ‘God’ is here, that’s a book!

Sufficed to say, I ‘woke’. In an experience that seemed to last for days I began to remember who I am, who we are.

Yes we are all God, and yet individual aspects, this so that God can interact with itself and in that know itself and also fulfil the conscious criteria creating ‘other than’ so from both the cosmic and ‘real’ perspective, consciousness has something other than itself in order to re-cognise and in that be self aware. (The feed back loop of re-cognised thought.)

The infinite can’t manifest as a whole as it can’t be quantified and as I said, as soon as anything manifests then it will be a fragment which only makes sense relative to other fragments that approximate the whole.

God is telling the story of itself, as there is nothing other than God it has to, there is nothing other than it!

The reason I say ‘I remembered’ is due to the fact that as God, we actually know all of this. We had to forget it in order to play it out which as I said we have to in order to fulfil the conscious element.

So God was really just reminding/waking me and yes, as God reminded me I got that ‘Oh shit’ feeling. Yes, I remembered.

Real quick; the conscious aspect of God is linear due to how consciousness works, the re-cognised feed back loop, which requires time and space (separation) for the feed back.

In the infinite there is no separation between anything, all is ONE and so there can be no feed back, and so no consciousness. If a soul reaches the point at which it is big enough to see all, it will by its nature not stop viewing, and therefore it will attempt to view its infinite aspect. Adam tries to be as God, Adam representing the finite, and God is Infinite.

If the two opposites attempt to join, the same thing will happen from both perspectives. One; if the finite becomes infinite it will lose its time-space element and then not be self aware, it will implode or ‘sleep’.

If a finite aspect (male penis 1) enters the infinite (female vagina 0) it will via it’s defined view point beg the question, how big is this I am attempting to view, it will try to quantify, and that is endless expansion. Which, is an explosion, and therefore, if the two opposites join then they will annihilate each other, implode and explode, which can’t actually happen because nothing can be lost as there is nowhere to be lost to as God is all. And so we can see from this a mind that must consume itself in thought, as consciousness requires thought, which will eventually lead to a paradox point where the finite aspect will try to know the infinite, which then explodes the whole that will have to re-member as there is nowhere ‘other’ to explode to.

Which then dictates cycles of sleep and wake as God forgets and remembers itself so that it can be conscious of the only thing that ‘IS’ itself. (When male 1 and female 0 opposites join, it is creative!)

And in order to reveal itself it has to separate into soul aspects to then play out an interactive story, this as a catalyst to know itself as if it doesn’t do anything then it isn’t anything. It’s a play of the self roughly speaking, but yes that takes a book to explain, a book I don’t need to write because everyone will see this soon anyhow!

So, we re-member what ‘IS’ and that’s why I say I woke.

When I woke from my ‘dream’, which was very emotional and incredibly frightening, I told my girl friend what had happened. (In that first week I had blood flecks in my eyes and lost about a stone in weight.)

My girlfriend thought the sane as you, ‘He’s nuts’!

But then she loved me so the next day she went out and bought me a bible.

I laughed, the bible does contain some truth but it’s a book written by a man, well many men and yet vetoed by one man, it’s nothing more than a work of propaganda created in order to control people.

But then as coincidence was rife back then, well it still is, but back then it shocked and amused me as it was new. I flipped open the bible and slammed my finger down. It read something like ‘I will return you to Zion and give you teachers who know me’.

Zion was where I was working a few months earlier.

Then I flipped it again and read ‘The first place I chose for you to worship me is Shiloh, and the name of he cottage we were standing in was Shiloh!

It went on and on and on, when I got back to London my Father was really annoyed at what I was saying and so I was able to tell him that he would win the football pools the next week, he still has the cheque!

And yet in time he has reverted back to his secular ways, I have tried to tell so many people about what happened to me and yet no one is really interested. I guess it’s only natural that people only deal with what is on their plate.

Yeah God may well be real but God does not pay my bills, I do understand.

So, I could if given time, telling you of every coincidence and impossible event, and more than that explain how the logical element of God works so that you too could understand. I could maybe bring you to the 99% belief in God, but ultimately, you will have to see it for yourself in order to believe/know, or you are a mere gullible fool.

2012? Not sure about the date but yes there is a shift coming. A shift forced by logic in fact, why? Well, we are playing out the premise of ‘man’, the first passages of His-story. Like kids learning our ABC’s and due to how we are growing in ‘essential’ ignorance, so that we play the game, invent the ‘things’ interact and experience ourselves ‘evolve’. (If we knew it was a game we would not play.)

The ignorance creates fear which in turn creates greed and panic and in that we grab and control. Creating this grabby bully world they call a capitalist democracy. And in ‘math’ it goes that such a system has to expand in order to survive, exploiting all asset bubbles until there are none left to exploit, and then the money all gravitates to money, we have winners and losers, like Monopoly really. And in that the losers have no mechanism to pull down money to survive, no real jobs with good wages as the winners are squeezing it to battle each other, and so the money does not come down to the workers who are the consumers, it doesn’t circulate and the game naturally ends.

This is where we are!

The ‘people’ call for a fairer system, they are the majority and they do all the work. They say to the rich, give back so that the game can be sustained but then the rich love money and power. They will never give back!!!! They are like the monkey stuck with its hand through a chain link fence. It can’t pull its hand back because it’s hanging on to an apple that won’t fit through, it wants it and yet will never get to eat it, and yet it refuses to let go.

This is where we are, stuck at an impasse.

Economic melt down, revolution and war!

The game has come to its conclusion, but then due to where we are, what we now understand of God, (some of us), we can extend the game via a relaxation of the rules. Rules that are not ‘real’ they are in place in order to get us here is all.

So comes the revelation of which my awakening is part.

Yes there will be a shift, some of the magic will soon replace the logic.

They say polarity shift, yes, I can see that, the more ‘spiritual’ of us will lead as opposed to the most driven by greed. And when I say spiritual, I mean the ones who understand God and in that believe in equality, justice, compassion, tolerance and yet not in an airy fairy way, those weeping do gooders just get in the way.

Each man will be asked to take responsibility for himself and everyone else, work towards being a part of a balanced whole that will allow men to further explore themselves outside of fear and corruption

We have to ensure that everyone is okay!!!!!!!

Some times nurturing, sometimes via tough love, like gardening I suppose!

So yes I did see God, I saw more than can be imagined and when God reveals itself only then will you want to know exactly what I saw, but by then there will be no point in telling you….no need…. Irony!

Irony? You see ‘life’ is based on irony, a simple paradox. All that exists is infinite conscious energy, and the infinite can’t be known/manifest and consciousness, the finite, can’t quantify the infinite.

Which then creates endless cycles of cosmic sleep and wake, as finite premise plays out to its conclusion and then reboots, over and over and over. As long as the paradox exists it can’t ever end, (perpetuation) and also seeing as we forget as we sleep, we can watch this movie for the first time for ever!

You may think that God is all wooooooo spooky weird, it makes you act weird, it makes grown men wear dresses and speak in funny ways, and also, due to the fact that no one really believes that God exists, anyone says any old shit about God.

Not so!

It’s the most natural thing there is!

Not a bunch of mindless bullshit like current science, which is only really a struggle for control.

You see yes, the logic bubble can be understood, the chain reaction, but then this infinite conscious entity that drives the cycles exists???!!!!

As opposed to there being nothing, that would have had to stay nothing!

How sane is that? Something exists, as opposed to nothing, it immense!

It’s awesome!

And luckily God is not an asshole, therefore yes, we did need to experience all the negative stuff in order to define the positive stuff, there is no love without hate.

And so soon, when the shift comes, as we ‘grow’ we will begin to celebrate existence, not just sell each other in order to survive.

Why did it have to be so bad?

Well, bearing in mind that nothing dies, ‘reflective’ the height we wish to reach is totally dependant on the depth we are prepared to go.

And we have gone pretty dam low. I can’t think of any way we could have gone lower in this premise. We have had genocide, murder, rape, slavery, crucifixion, it can’t get worse, well, apart from in the movie Life of Brian, where the guy reckons you can get worse than crucifixion! Silly person!

God is real, religion is bullshit, if you want to know what Jesus said then don’t bother reading a book compiled by a Pharisee convert usurper, Saul, who change his name to Paul.

The truth is coming and no one can stand against it.

And I just know that’s gonna piss a hell of a lot of people off. Hence Armageddon!

(In order to experience a better existence, any aspect that wishes the old exploitative world to remain will be removed via choice or force.)

And yes you can swear and joke of course you can, this is what we are, a little rough around the edges maybe, the spice of life! No need to be a hypocrite, shit, most would look at me and see the devil with my tattoos, this as they run to a priest who fiddles with kids!

Or the politician who lets the system fail to see many suffer as he feathers his own nest. Or the respected business man who signed the paper that saw people thrown off of their land, macheted if they refused.

So I swear, so what. I would give my life for my fellow man, to see peace and happiness I would consider it an honour and a fair trade.

No more facades, no more lies.

Good is as good does!

Yes I saw God……

Letter from October 6th, 2011
Well my experiance was about 2 or 3 years ago i was at the library looking for some books to hire out when i came across a symbols books so i decided to get it

i found it quite interesting i came across a buddhist mandala " at the time i had no idea what it or what it was used for the book didnt tell me ethier but it

fascinated me so i drew my own using symbols i could understand.

As i was going to sleep my mandala was still fresh in my mind and though visualization it got clearer and clearer all of a sudden it was like i could touch it in my mind

the BOOM, a great flash of light went of in my head.

Thats my experiance with God or the light whatever you want to call it

Letter from September 18, 2011

I don't know what it means to be me. But God has sent his Holy Spirit to me a couple of times and engulfed me with pure Love. I knew that I could ask anything and it would be answered. I asked why I had been hurt for so long by so many. The answer was so that I could be there at that moment with Him. I have never and will never be more in Love. I asked for my purpose and the answer was to be a warrior. I still don't know what that means. I loved everyone, even child molesters and murderers. I just loved them and saw a divine light in everyone. Everybody glowed like angels. It was as if it had always been like this but I was choosing not to see it before. I even loved the grain of sand that was on the ground, and I felt it love me back. I wanted to stand up in Church and YELL! "Hey don't you see that you don't have to be sad? Don't you know that you are loved? Open your Hearts! Open your EYES! HOW DO YOU NOT SEE THIS? If you did you wouldn't be here like this. You would be talking to each other, laughing and hugging and loving each other, that's how you show God Love. You would be just smiling and loving each other." I think I should've done it but I was afraid that they would think I was crazy. Then one day I hoped it would never leave. Then it was gone. My friends and family looked at me like I was crazy when I told them. I ended up falling from grace and hurting myself and others. I had anger problems and self abuse habits. Then I lost sight of the love in the world and felt alone. I was desperate. Then I literally fell onto a prayer that was in a book on the floor of my trashed bedroom. I read it and my pain was Gone. I tried changing my life. I decided to seek God and Find God again. I Felt like a failure over and over again. I grew angry and resentful, and jealous. I didn't understand. Then not too long ago I was going to kill myself. God put a person that has hurt me the most and made him help me see the good again. Not like before but I know it's there now. I gave up my free will to make plans and chose only to follow. I don't know where this will lead me. My Friends think it's crazy or that I'm being a goody shoes. They think that I'm over the edge on my Quest for God. But I don't think anyone can go to far on that. How can you love too much? I'm back on my quest and a couple of nights ago Gods face appeared on the crinkles of a poster in my sons room facing my bed through the doorways. It Looks just like the shroud of Jesus. He doesn't look happy. I don't know what to do. Please pray that I do the right thing.

Christie Marie Herrera

Another recent letter from September 18, 2011

Dear Mr Zebra,

I have the pleasure to write you such a letter, for I have had various
experiences to do with love/intention and Nirvana/Heaven of God.

It happened one day when I went to see a spiritual master, and after
hearing what he had to say on certain matters, the feeling of love in
the heart (more like anahata) blossomed outwards beyond the realms of
what we call 'personal space' and melded into an infinity within,
showing me that life and love are one and the same.
And that we are all meant to be connected as one in love/joy and
sincerity, very much what I often see all the time in little children
and animals, especially dogs.

That indeed truly was a blessing from God, and I have been grateful for
such an experience. A couple friends I told to told me that I had
experienced supreme bhakti-enlightenment. Honestly, I wasn't sure what
to make of it when they said that.

The feeling of love, light within, grace and joy in every second,
freedom from negativity, love of self and all, tears of happiness, all
showed me that this was the way to inner peace. Later on, I realised
that this energy never really came from within, for it can never been
contained or kept, only experienced from God, in the Heart. And it has
never really left, only stayed with me until I was ready to accept life
again for what it is - joyfully precious in every moment.

Another experience I had much later on, after the heart awakening, was a
mind blowing experience of the 3rd Eye. Somehow, it happened after
having integrated certain breathing techniques into everyday life. It
happened when I was about to nod off to sleep one night.

There was a buzzing, a constant droning noise coming from within, when I
was falling asleep, however the energy was not so much concentrated in
the heart, but in the throat region this time. A sense of light-sound
was perceived, gushing in and out of the throat, constantly droning and
creating various pitches, almost like music but even more beautiful to
listen to. There also was a no-mind, for it had gone when the experience
occured. All this was driving the body deeper and deeper into sleep, but
'consciousness/observer' itself was never more awake/lucid than it had
been before.

Just then, a throbbing feeling in the head happened, and all sounds
ceased. It revealed itself like the surface of an vast, infinite ocean,
and consciousness found itself sucked into it, much like the sensation
of diving into the ocean.

A sense of submersion occured and a trapdoor above the inside of the
nose opened up, illuminating the whole body/brain with white light and
there occured a wonderful sensation of freedom. Consciousness found
itself a pair of wings, and was flying off the ground/earth (body) in
awe and wonder, ever soaring into the infinite sky of God, itself being
from the source of light within! The ego mind revealed itself to be the
clouds of the ground (body). And consciousness was ever flying into the
sky, towards the 3rd Eye/Sun (abode of God). The 3rd eye (area above the
nose) was filling itself with life force/light within, feeding it to the
consciousness/spirit until it was just as bright as the sun...

I am certain that there are deeper and deeper states, but at that point,
the body took over somehow and I found myself deep asleep till the next
morning. It showed me one thing - deep sleep or what I call the ego
darkness state, is a weak shadow of the true light within that you can
perceive in the 3rd Eye/abode of God.

Never has an experience changed what it truly means to be at peace with
God. And for that, I thank God for showing me who it really is - the
life force within everything and everyone! (Holy Spirit/Kundalini/Life
force/Love)

I am using metaphors here because there is no word that can truly
encapsulate this wonderous experience. And I hope that you will be able
to experience these experiences, because we are all from God (life
force/light within) and that the body is purely an anchor for
consciousness/spirit, to keep it grounded, until it is ready to be free
once more in life and in death!

That, my friend, is what God is - the experience of true freedom within!

Letter from December 18th, 2011

Matthew 24:23. Then if any man shall say unto you, Lo, here is Christ, or there, believe it not. John1:18 No man hath seen God at any time; the only begotten Son, which is in the bosom of the Father, he hath declared Him.

Letter from September 11th, 2011

I had an experience where I believe I saw the face of God. I had driven 13 hours from my home to a conference, where there would be 2 days of worship & prayer. In this conference. I stretched my longing for the presence of God to another level. I truly came in as a child, and literally looked for the face of God. You must also know that God does show me pictures or "visions" at different times and reveals the meanings of these "visions" at later times. Most of these visions are in reference to what God is doing either in my life or others life. For example I have seen a rose that was blooming ( this particular vision has had many life references to my relationship with God), I have seen lightning, a boat/ocean turned upside down, and many others. So back to the time I saw the face of God. I like I stated before, was literally looking for the face of God. I was frantically searching for Him ( eyes closed) , I had to see Him, I would not give up looking until I did, I was so desperate, I quoted scripture mostly Psalms, and kept looking for Him. All of a sudden there was a face before me. It was broad, strong, powerful, long curly hair, with a beard, and the most memorable were His Eyes. They were captivating, His eyes drew me in and I could tell He was in control, wise, full of power, and just amazing. I really dont think there is words to describe Him and His beauty. I reached out for Him, I wanted so bad to touch Him. He remained there for a couple of minutes, and tears went down my cheeks, and he was gone. I want so much to know why He showed Himself to me, I wonder was it to preserve my life, was it to keep me looking for Him. I probably shouldn't even wonder why, just be thankful that I did. There is no doubt in my mind that I saw Him, and I will search for Him again and again until I see him.

Elizabeth Kennard

Letter from August 24th, 2011
Hello,

one of my friends told me that he has seen the god about 10 years ago. he said he has seen a beautiful naked girl during his prayer two times. Please let me know if have you ever heard the same story ?

Kind regards

Nazila

Letter from August 16th, 2011
It was back in 1984 I had been seeing two women on and off, both I was very serious about. I was at a crossroads and did not know what to do. So I prayed for hours crying and asking for God's help. It was getting late and was undressed in my bedroom around 2-3 am or so. Then a circular light glowing with a real power of energy that it lit my face up with warmth spoke to me and said " if you really want to know get up and drive over to your Girlfriends house.this was in the middle of the night but I didn't hesitate I jumped up and left for her house. Now I would date one then break up and date the other never dating both at once, but at this time me and this one were involved in a committed relationship. Engagement rings were given, I'm telling you this so you could understand the gravity of the situation. Well when I pulled up she was kissing another man in her front yard. I knew then and told her it was over and it was. I've been married to my wife for almost 25 years and she through God, is the light of m life!

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Letter from July 27, 2011

I saw god come out of a bon fire when I was 17.5. He spoke to me for a couple minutes. His eyes blinked and his mouth moved when he talked. He wanted me to Nature of Mind by Alex Grey

go home. I wondered for years 'why did he want me to go home'. I am 49 now. I have told 2 preachers, one semi-believes me, the other I do not think he does. I wrote a 3rd and he finds it highly unlikely because he said noone has seen him in 2000 yrs since his resurrection. Pam from NC (USA)
Letter from July 7th, 2011 (the first from a mobile text message)

Yes . There is no end .god said he just got started. He said we know what rite and wrong.

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Letter from July 4th, 2011

Hi

I thought to share my experience with you because this kind of experience was unique, and I never felt it before. Just 2 days back, I was watching Prison Break, and I suddenly felt a presence. My mind was kind of jammed. I didnt think of doubting or questioning if God is really around. I just knew that he was with me. I felt serene. Peace was all around, But I didnt stop watching Prison Break. I was absolutely into the series I was watching and I knew God is with me. I dont know how my conscious got so strong that I could equally concentrate on the series and God. So many things kept on crossing my mind like my problems, my love for God. Tears kept rolling my eyes but I was happy, very happy. And not to forget that all this time I was still watching the series.

I am a Hindu by religion, and I pray all Gods but I dont fear God, I always loved God like a friend. I pray less but my belief is strong about the existing Super Power, God. I believe we are parts of God so we are God too. That day I felt Lord Shiva to be with me. I always feel a special connection with Lord Shiva.

I know if I tell anybody No one will believe me, so I am writing to you.

Thanks

Pooja Sachdev

Letter from July 4th, 2011

It was back in 1998 when I was passing through the dining room and the sun shone brightly and I felt a great sense of peace come over me. Suddenly with my (what I would describe) as third eye I seen Jesus/God. I was so emotional after the experience I wept. I felt a great sense of unconditional love and peace. I felt I loved him more than anybody . I love my husband so much and my parents who passed away before that event. I have been thinking of that day ever since and I feel I should do more with my life but I am always kind and never harm anyone. Why did God come to me? or did I search for him? There is a quote from the bible SEEK AND YOU WILL FIND KNOCK AND THE DOOR WILL OPEN. I never go to church but would describe myself as spiritual. In 1995 my dad died and he came to me but it was with my real eyes .

Letter from May 7th, 2011

God is glorious and everywhere, within everything. I was laying in a field just yesterday, the sun was shining, and the temperatures were perfect, suddenly, it was as if the world opened before my eyes. Just laying there I was able to feel the molecular connections of the entire earth, when I looked up to the sky, it was as if I was surrounded by angles, all were around me. The angles actually seemed as they were enabling me to be alive, sort of like they created my consciousness. The best way to describe it was as if I was in the movie the Matrix, and the world before me dissolved, and there was a hidden world of love, and glowing warmth surrounding me. (no I was not on drugs).

I spoke to God! Asking if this was real or not, and the answer was yes, (not an actual voice, but more like an overflowing feeling of emotion) and that I was to promote love! To be love, to share love, to give love, to think love, and that if each of us got on the same wavelengths, then the would would see the "curtain" or "illusion of life" fall away, all that would be in our world would be a grand and beautiful oneness. I wish to share with all, and for all to know, that there is no death, only a passing! Love allows you to obtain the next level of life! there is something that I have experienced, that is so profound, such an epiphany, so extremely difficult to express in words.....Please, people, believe, all you have to do is believe and feel! you will see!

I do not support any organized religion, but I do believe in the power of God!

When I first came to this website, the main picture is sort of like what I experienced. the circles of beings!

thank you all for reading,

Peace to you

Will.V

Letter from January 15th, 2011

There before my earthly body, soul and spirit stood the Royal beast of Godly like Lion Man in all his Majestic Glory of Pomp and Circumstances.

There was no bursts of lightening or fire but just the Holy Spirit the father in body Shape and form with the face of Man and body of lion. There was serenity and peacefulness with an instinctual intellectual body of energy of Great beast! The face of an elderly man with great wisdom and knowledge with understanding expressed in the most purist of form within the Universal Constellational Star System configurations.

His message is pure and knows no binding universal limitations. He does not speak in a verbal language but only instinctually through a dimensional vibration element of medium forces of body – blood and Soul incorporating the trinity of Holy Spirit being his mighty creation of truth stamped upon his earth.

He then departs as he came in a most Royal dignified Majestic manner with his Eyes in the front of his face and eyes protruding behind his body to the rear watching as he leaves into an unknown dimensional Star Constellation far from this earthly plane.

It is time to reveal this vision to human for those who have understanding on Earth. For God has perfect timing on the release of knowledge which is to be executed through medium elements for his holy revelation of discovery has began !

Aman .

Letter from January 8th, 2011

8^th Jan 2010 :

Blessed is the Kingdom of Heaven for our earthly souls adore thee Oh Great Royal Majesty of Beast!

Lion of Man ! Master of all Creation & traveler of Universal Star system Constellations.

Within the face of Man there is God and within God there are great Intellectual indefinite powers of understandings in all his heavenly and earthly creations!

The powers and purity of understanding in Gods nature is within the concept of Man providing he raises his arms and hands in Prey and opens his Soul – Heart- Mind - body in devotional love to God the Father so he can receive the sacrificial gifts of Holy Trinity!

Blessed are all Gods creatures that have visited this earthly Domain since the beginning

of the blessing!

Email: lme4@bigpond.com

Aman .

Letter from January 5th, 2011

If anyone has truly been in the presence of God knows one thing; It is like nothing you ever experienced. No drug, sex, or any earthly feeling can compare. I am a channel for his gifts and many times are in communion with God, co creating. I am now fifty one years old and my last experience has left me feeling that of someone lost and guided at the same time. I cannot understand everyday people nor can they understand me. As one person in this forum described it and I concurred when the last incident happened is; that is does feel like you won the lottery, the spiritual lottery. I understand drug addiction or sex addiction, it is that chasing of the feeling of nothingness and you want to maintain that state at all times, the problem is those who are addicted to the material world or masking the pain and feeling "numb" can achieve the same feeling without ruining their soul or damaging their lives. All they have to do is listen, sit back and wait and God/he/she (there is no gender with god) you will feel the divine presence of nothingness and everything combined,, no duality because it cancels out both which is where you want to be in between were God can reveal himself/herself to you. I am so blessed to be a channel and anyone can if they choose to be (God is a respector of no persons). I have had near death experiences, I have had a full life of suffering and will continue on to the path. It is not easy to maintain the state of equamity but striving for it is all that matters. I know the feeling of wanting to give up and now I know true compassion because we humans are all striving for the same thing its just most people are not aware of it. They are going outside to seek it when it is like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz - Its been with you the always, you need not look outside yourself or that you have to drink or do drugs or love another, addiction to love, sex, fear, yes fear is addiction. When you realize God gave you by birth, your divine right to have total access of all that is good you need not look further than inside yourself.

For now my life is that of wanting to get off the planet because I feel we shall face some shocking things to wake up humanity. But God has me here to uplift all the souls who will feel such desperation and complete chaos. It is the light givers that will guide them back to God for rebuilding and advancing the stages of our evolution.

So if everyone truly knows that God is not so much in a church every Sunday once a week and that you have to give money to get a seat in heaven, you know who he is and what he wants, all that he/she wants is for you to fulfill your purpose and what he has for you may not be what he has for your neighbor or coworker, parent, sibling etc.. So the biggest sin (I say sin for lack of a better word) is that you do not fulfill your purpose, forget about the church rules, think about what God wants you to do and all things will be made right within you. God knows whats best for you not your church your family all the ones that tell you what to do, Do not listen to them. We were all born with the all knowing inside us, trust what is in side of you that tells you right from wrong, this is what makes us superior to all the other inhabitants (birds,fish,animals) My only message is to have compassion for those around you especially those trying to hurt you, there is a reason. Do not however let them continue to hurt you, move on, when you seek the highest truth you will be safe and no one can touch you and you shall reach your destiny which is true joy.

The real God will not talk so to speak in English or French or he looks like a old man with a beard, this is only an illusion for you to comprehend, to relate to if so. because God is a feeling more than a language and a look. God can reveal himself only to which the level you can comprehend. But I know what I have experienced is the complete feeling of joy, so much that I could not stop crying, it was tears of joy but so intense I felt I could not contain it and when you start to feel like capturing it, it will leave. You cannot put God in a cage or capture you can only become one with God. You cannot put God in a box or in a church pew, this is such a big mistake for organized religions for they want to control you as individual and tell you what to do. God knows this and wants you to rely on him, not the church and the legalistic ways of trying to be righteous. This never works look around see how many churches and religions there are, they have caused more damage than good, more wars than peace. True lovers of God are not taking money from you and they are not exclusive, they are inclusive light givers who want you to empower yourself, they want you to know God personally and you might find this in a church but I can tell you as Jesus went off and prayed and was in total solitude as with any saint, avatar you need to seek the silence to know God. You cannot listen if you are not still. THe application is like any principle regarding education. Spiritual education is that you must adhere and focus to what God is wanting you to do and it takes practice but once you realize that it is no different than picking up a loaf of bread of a shelf to where it becomes knowingness you are one with GOD.

I have come to see the Light and nothing on earth compares to it- when you do shopping, eating, trying to keep a man or a woman, drugs, alcohol, gambling, greed, sex cannot compare to teh feeling, you just keep wanting to attain the feeling of God and the more you want it the more it will be in your life. If only those who are in power will let you in on this secret that really isn't a secret. But yet they control you with religion and the media, and political party beliefs and the list goes on, are addiction to fame and those who are famous. This is to keep you really in the dark about what is happening they are making you just like robots follow us- we will teach you to be mindless and we will teach you what to worship (movie stars, atheletes) and while we are doing that we will take your money and leave you with nothing. Please get wise, seek God wisdom, not what the world wants you to be or do.

If you want to learn more... email me at tbrasile@gmail.com

Letter from December 23rd, 2010
I have heard Gods voice two times in my life.
The first time I had back slid. I came back to God when there was a revival at my church. I was crying out to God and he told me "I've missed you my child."
The second time I had gone through a rough patch. I was worshiping and yelling out to God that I loved him. He replied, "I love you too."

His voice is indescribable. It's like nothing I've ever heard before. It's the most calming and peaceful voice you'll ever hear. Just one word put me at peace. I felt joy and happiness. I'm sorry my description is so horrible, like I said, its indescribable.

&the thing is, I'm only 16. I believe God has a huge calling in my life and I'm exciting to see where it goes.

God bless.

Love, Jordin